Cure

[Verse 1]
As I, fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict traits
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
Start off with the night well like, I think I'll just have a taste
Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate
To a harder prescription drug called Valium like, yeah that's great
I go to just take one and I end up like having eight
Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate
Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
And you'd think that with all I have at stake
Look at my daughter's face
Mommy something is wrong with dad I think
He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me
Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos
And he just fell asleep in his car eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat

[Hook]
Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door,
I try to catch my breath again
I've hurt much more than anytime before,
I have no options left again

[Verse 2]
"Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?"
That's the devil in my ear
I been sober a fuckin' year
And that fucker still talks to me he's all I can fuckin' hear
"Marshall, come on we'll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers"
And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed
For half of the time, who's the mastermind behind that little line
With that kind of rationale man I got half a mind
To have another half of glass of wine, sound asinine
Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol
Ouch, look out for the wall, aim for the couch - I'm 'bout to fall
I missed the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball
Shit musta knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all
Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I
Man, fuck am I hungover and goddamn I
Got a headache, shit half a Vicodin, why can't I
All systems ready for take off, please stand by

[Hook 2]
Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
Feels like I been down this road before
So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like deja vu
I wanna get away from this place I do
But I can't and I won't
Say I try, but I know that's a lie
Cause I don't and why I just don't know

[Chorus]
I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
'Cause inside i realize that I'm the one confused
I'll paint it on the wall 'cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again and this is how it ends