Dead End

I watch my hands fall in my lap as i leave this world in disbelief.
i never asked to be chosen but the responsibility has fallen on my shoulders.
i wish this would end some day before it will end up getting worse
but right at this moment it feels like im trapped in a dead end.
Your eyes burn a hole in mine and if i stare too long i turn to stone.
i request scilence as i wonder in the forest where i was born.
i'm trapped on the west coast paradice in a state of shock.
this is enough to drive anyone in a right mind crazy and back.
I ask my self if i will break before i bend.
shit flew on the fan as i approach the dead end.
i hold on to anything i get attached to.
i believe ill be ok as long as i stick to you
I remind myself how thing's could have been
then i remember the reality i seen
you grip the easiest side of the knife
your nightmare is the reality of my life.
If i happen fall before i wake and then i can see how i am still alive
maybe then i can open a door of hope and oppurtunity and then realize
how life is a valuable thing and that i can never ever let go
no matter how hard this gets i still hold on to everyone i know.
i like the tase of rain after it sits because it seems to take me away
I'd do anything right about now just to disappear for good today.
pain is only temporary but i head that a thousand fucking times
but as i experience it first hand it does not seem like a line.
teenage years that i have yet saw are already an enormous burden.
god damnit you already said that fuck you i already heard it.
I ask my self if i will break before i bend.
shit flew on the fan as i approach the dead end.
i hold on to anything i get attached to.
i believe ill be ok as long as i stick to you
I remind myself how thing's could have been
then i remember the reality i seen
you grip the easiest side of the knife
your nightmare is the reality of my life.