Redemption Denied

You know sometimes when I get up in the morning,
I don't know if I can face another day
because s**t's been so fking hard for so fking long
and it don't seem like ever going to change.
Sometimes it seems like s**t ain't doing nothing but getting worse.
Sometimes when I look in the mirror,
I look despised at what I see cause pride
strength, all of love and life they don't seem to have alot to do with me.
Feels like something went wrong with me a long time ago,
something inside me way deep down died
and I can't remember when,
I just don't know where the fk I went wrong...
What's life but a river of tears anyway, huh?

Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For away to make my way through this world full of s**t
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t
I've got nothing left
I await for the angel of death
I've lost too many times too many times to count the pain is so great

Let me tell you something, rock bottom is a sweet fking dream,
a myth made up by a liar who's dispear is a void you can slip into forever.
I've been as low as you can go
and I guess here at the bottom the only place you can go is up,
but everytime I start to get ahead everytime I start to get somewhere
it's seems like someone or something knocks me the fk back down.
One step forward, two steps back.
I read somewhere that "without hope, man is but an animal"
...I think I've lost hope

I've got nothing left
I await for the angel of death
I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I'm so fking tired of being fked up all the time
but I can't seem to do it any other way,
maybe I'm not as strong as you
but sometimes my fked up life it brings me down
when I look around.
My life it didn't make me hard
it just hardened something deep down inside of me.
I think it was my humanity.
I want it back, I want to feel normal again, I wanna feel like a human.
I don't wanna be like this no more,
I'm just looking for some shelter of salvation
or something to believe in or just maybe someone who cared.

I've got nothing left
I await for the angel of death
I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great
I never asked for life
I wish that at birth I had died
I tried to drown this hate
Death will be the cure for all this pain
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t
I've got nothing left
I await for the angel of death
I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great
I never asked for life
I wish that at birth I had died
I tried to drown this hate
Death will be the cure for all this pain
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t
I've got nothing left
I await for the angel of death
I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great
I never asked for life
I wish that at birth I had died
I tried to drown this hate
Death will be the cure for all this pain
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t

There's no where to turn, everyone betrays you.
I can't trust anyone and I'm so fking paranoid.
I'm always waiting for the fall, for the let down.
Trust nobody for sure.
I can't remember when a day's gone by
that I haven't thought about taking myself out.
I know I ain't s**t but I know I'll never be s**t.
I've got no future but I think I can deal with it, I think I can live,
if I can just look at one person
and see them smile at me and know that they meant it.

Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t
Every Day
Each fking day I pray
I pray to a god that I know does not exist
For a way
Some fking way
Some day
For a way to make my way through this world full of s**t