Before Braille

SECRET NO.7
We feel just like
Two criminals
With unknown crimes
Its not your fault
Its always mine.

THE SPANISH DAGGER
Well stop cashing me in for a thin line
Youre right on track to know what it feels like to lose more than youve ever gained
Charges pending further investigation
Youve got to expect that youre falling from graces
Rehearsing all your persona will need when youre front-page fighting (aim) for your dignity
I almost taste the the irony
How fiction replaces history
Use daunted glow to light your page

You say those feelings of doubt will never cut across your mouth
I know that Socrates and impurities are getting you down
Youll take all theyve got to get your fill
Your time is running out
Youre getting carried away because no one cares about your fame
I see the dagger in your name
Deny your roots for future rain, for future reign

Add one more kill to raise your worth
Its so sad, cause its all the truth you have
Trade breath for gold
Theres no Armageddon when banks are there to relieve you
Why prevent yourself to take wealth from someone else
Dare to incite yourself when youre your only foe
Youre carried away
Nothings real about your fame
I can see you drown in your own wake
So pale, so thin youd float away
I see you trying so hard
So no one will ever take your place when you feel the dagger brush your face
Well I deny myself what I can take when I can waitand expect the same

Incriminated, your teeth still shine over the suffering
Deceiving trade, but the blade will shine.

CINEMA SPINE
Just a little bit of feeling in your stories and Im ready rearing to go
Just a little bit of grieving in the words you relate and Im alright

Crash land, insist, cant exist on frailty
I always crash land, resist, exaggerated authority

Just a little bit of bleeding in your stories and Id be really wanting to know- how they treat internal bleeding when theyre dying to be the future glow

All attacks come two by two
Weve been gliding, so far just spinning our wheels

When all the bodies fall do they face the sky
To choose which star to make it home
When all the bodies fall is it finally quiet
Or does their last heartbeat echo till theyre gold

Crash land, resist, re-define a dire need
Crash land, in this unassuming reality

When all the bodies fall will they shun the light
And dust their feet on brittle stone
And all this time is wasted on an assembly line
To keep things plain enough to be sold

Tell me something to ease my worry, tell me something to calm me down
Tell me something to prove your story, a shot of sodium pentathol
Tell me something thats not too late to deny
Why would anybody treat your right

We already know how the actors feel.

MIRACLE MILE
Im ready to blow
Its not my fault
Dont waste a four-leaf clover
Good happens to the owner
Just wait, when the leaves fall
They go below your faults

Now youre just boring me to death
Ive got a catacomb underneath the same place I lay my head
Ive gotta bury them blind and then control what they find
Im hanging on a thread
You know Im ready to blow like Ive told you I would

Out of nothing you find your own authority
Cleanse the water to send your holy blessings
Im flying solo, Im falling so low, where do we go
Out of nothing you find your own authority
Forbidden honor will go as far as atrophy
Im flying solo
Ill go

Now youre just boring me to death
Ive got a cataract focused on a shaky conscience at best (shaky guest)
Ive got to make up my mind and try to make up some time
Im hanging on a thread

You know Im ready to blow, but not quite yet
You know Im ready to fold, cant count my cards yet
You know Im ready to forget all weve been through
You know Im ready for you

The shaken are desperate for new sounds on old ground
To bury reflections, infections from strong hands in weak glands
And when theyre awakened their vision will fade

It aint a bit of my fault
Im gonna miss her.

TWENTY-FOUR MINUS EIGHTEEN
Confidence, coming clean, ambivalent to everything
24 minus 18, find a problem for everything
Dont try to tell me what I mean
Dont try to build yourself from the outside
Dont try to make yourself; youll break every time
Dont try to take your guilt and leave it behind
I carry mine

This l*st will defeat us
Ive learned too many times
You cuss when you see us
Im taking all this in stride

I breathe too hard
My lungs are scarred

Have you tried to arrest yourself, arrested in time
Why change if you cant find the time
Try to make the most of this or get left behind
Everything comes at a price

You trust us when you need us
Why do I feel theres nothing inside
This crutch will relieve us
How can I fix this if I havent tried

I want to send you roses before your death is staged
When understanding violence, suspects know their fate
I want another reason why I never help myself
I waste my days regretting why

Celebrate, Semper fi, Sic Transit Gloria

If you dont intend to go, never say that you want to
Stay home until you know, lifes short, but quite a ride
Got 8 months to go, a tightened grip will get you through
Dont forget your goals, time is on your sideas long as youre alive

You want some closure
You almost finished
But couldnt fool your pride
Out of nothing, fake forgiveness
Never satisfied.
(What if Id lied)

JAWS OF LIFE
Im caught up in the jaws of life
What can heal can also tear you up inside

Writing down your own anthem
You dont like the older one
I would stand at attention for less than minimum
Wage your own forgotten wars
Trade honor for canker sores
Ghostly pride with matching tours
Youre childish without the joy

I know that I said I would change
I know that I havent changed
A shoulder to lean on and then break/embrace
Im barely breathing with my status day to day

Caught off guard by innocence
I cross my heart you influences pull you down
I swear its not the fault of mine or of the fault of anyone

So tell me what the guilt feels like
Are you sw*llowed in the jaws of life
When you strip people down youll see how they dont need their cover
Is it clear and defined when fists from a simple conflict rise
And we turn into monsters we thought were once extinct.
(I could tell you things to shock you too)

GOODNIGHT QUIET NOISE
Youre full of spite and I know the reason why
Your alibi will never hold up to mine

Standing up when paralyzed
Pull the cloak over your eyes
It aint enough to be a mountain tall
Adding up, so name the price
Spent your lot to turn on a dime
Remove your mask to make a curtain call

Somethings calling me out to the boulevard
My thoughts need cages until the morning
When night it rises like the tide I feel Im underneath Im drowning in nothing at all

Make amends before you start the fight
Finding out why you should sleep at night
The blood will boil then solidify

You better see this, you wont believe it
You cant avoid the way they perceive you to be
Theyre still behind you
Theyre catching up to hold you to the back of the line.

SPLIT LIP ENVY
Im just a token of your flirtation
Nothing more than a description
Youre just a guy, just a kid from a place where your philosophy is a catastrophe
Wake up split lip, youre not that cool
Put your words in quotes then call yourself Vegan
Turn up, off, on your stupid song and sing
Words about the things you know and what you think you have to show her

As for myself, I think its obvious that Im envious of you

Tell me now what youve got to look forward to
I hear theyre hiring at the dairy queen
Your whole story has been a disappointment
Your poetry is just a joke to me
Anything and everything about the affection
That you get when what youve got then
10 times 42, whats that got to do with anything this songs about
This jealousy Ill do without

Where am I in this fairytale, this nightingale counters what I had in mind
and leaves me depressed and despised.

PARANOIA PAYS OFF
Ill try to get your attention so I can clear my name
(I know you dont care) because Ive seen my picture on your dartboard
Bleed without pain
Youre always so violentblah, blahto spite your face

Ill try to understand the words you yell at me
Ive simply become someone you abhor
Have you discovered that you need to change your ways
When out in the open and sense of direction just fades away

Youve never been sorry for a thing youve said
Have I told you that theres nothing I cant take from you

Its just decent to wait a while before you go and make a fool of me
Break through with a crescent smile, got to plan ahead for broken teeth
Its too late to defend yourself, I saw you laying down beside the things wed never talk about
But go on believing
See, my paranoia is paying off.

Ive been to/stayed at all the places I never felt Id ever be calling home.

WHEN THE FEELING FADES
It aint over, but it feels like it is done
Getting older and dignified
I thought we could go out for a ride
Look at gravesites and pretend that were inside
Trade headstones for the night

Relax and just settle down
This hesitation will not be wasted
We cant cross hidden lines
You know it helps like nothing else to taste the wind when you prepare to fly

Olli-Olli-Oxen-Free if you cant find a victim then youre hunting for me
So when the legs I have wont move Ive got a good place to hide
Under cover, Im hating all the things you say but dont mean
Youre an imposter and Ive seen you changing sides
Youre a dictator and we all drink to your pride

Well get this right
Well leave all the talking for another night
Its never kind, but we dont mind
You cant inspect a soul after it dies

Relax and just settle down
This hesitation is not complacent
(Its clear) We cant defend these lines
You know it helps like nothing else to lean through the windowsill within your mind

You give of yourself now
You think for yourself now
You cry by yourself now
Because you want to be let down
Youre a martyr with guest lists
Youll never make a birthday wish
Well you cant be without gifts
Because you need to be glorified

I can see why youre mortified when the feeling fades
Time wont ever be on your side
Are your feelings mine?

ABRACADAVER
So you see yourself holding the knife though it seems youre more terrified than the faces you practice at night, so you can watch your tongue sympathize

We all know its wrong, but pretend that its/were innocent

Get out of the way
You say that you cant move
Well drag you away to rot in your test tube
Congratulate me just when you need to
So captivating that I rot in place

Innocence fools you
It cuts you into pieces
You try to find a way to live or way to die
The decadence coerces you in zines & books & movies
I know Im right this time

Get out of the way
You say that you cant move and threaten to stay
Well, chalk up a new bruise
Like a thief in the night
So planned and deliberate
No use for a knife, if you cant hide itright?

You fall out of photographs and skin up your knees
Pulled under the undertow Im so sorry youre sorry

We all know its wrong
(Here we go)
Well all get along

Get out of the way
Its clear I cant trust you
You gamble with fate
A downfall for refuge
You reciprocate while plotting your next move
Its not fair to complain from miles away

LOW END OF LUXURY
Waitingstalemate
Collect all your things for what they're worth
(Youve got me leaving messages all night)
Wedding presents postmarked eternity
Will you return to the sender

You're paced too slow
The price of life
Save a collapsed lung
Take long distance shrugs
Leave a light on not a siren

So what's your story
Have you change that too
The ring slipped through your fingers, but still you can't let it go

I'm lost and found in some low end of luxury
(Ill start my packing when you start to fall asleep)
It's just the same as its always been
I've lost my will for anything

It's not rational why youll go
Hear it in her voice
She regrets her choice
Giving up by nomination
Once more just say it softly
the ring slipped through your fingers, but still you cant let go

Its hard to know what makes us fall apart
Its hard to want to stop it when it starts
Its hard to know what makes us fall apart
Scars jump at a chance to make a mark.

ARRIVE ALIVE
You try to make this last
But your candles burn too fast
Divided before you were born
Were you divided from your former you

Youll never make it far
Well its time, so let go of my arm
Youre dying north of 40
You are destined for its solitude

Just pull the cover over your eyes
Or do what just feels good
Its easy to be content about your life
Until its over

Why does this feel so good
Wont somebody tell me while Im alive
Why cant I withstand my l*st is so much stronger than my love for life
(Its just fate to play)

Will you take over when Im bleeding
Watch me squeeze out every pint Ive got
Its over
I can feel it
Well-rehearsed accidents prepare to stop
And I am trying
Know what you want before you start

I read your diary (to get to know you)
I skipped right to the end (I dont feel guilty)
Empty pages (of untold stories)
For days you didnt want to live (oh well, youve given up)

Too late to decide my fate or re-write autobiographies
And though I just woke up, I feel that Im washed up
Youre always fake (you fear the worst)
Because youve been betrayed (so well rehearsed)
Its your fault I can believe handshakes
Ive gone far enough, thats why Im washed up
Its over, I mean it
Its over, I believe it now
Im washed up.

AFTER ARGUMENTS
Deathbeds and guarded borders
Bedpans and doctors orders
Move on and leave the weak behind
Back stabs and painted on smiles
Its easier to die admired
From here there is no turning back

Fall out of focus
Arguments end where you leave them
(Whats it take to be satisfied)
You battle your progress
Arguments fend for themselves

Ive been shot down too many times
I guess I blame myself for targets I cant defend
A Punishment will never fit a crime
Well should I go ahead with this, if I could go ahead at all
Id be more confident if youd admit youre wrong

Do I need to chalk your lines
Victims precede the crime
Youre blaming yourself next time
Well take turns to cover the tracks that we leave behind
You use me to waste your time
Your grudges carry themselves just fine
Regrets, I take yours if youll take mine
A fair trade for lightning bolts, landmines or genocide

Unplug the phone, I need it quiet
All we have left is all we hold on to
I dont care anymore, lets put this aside
Ill scream with my last breath, Im alright
All we have left is all we lay next to

White boys, start your own KKK
You look like youre good for nothing anyway
Just like your parents before you
And just like your faceless neighborhood

I know that Im the one, I feel just like Shakakahn
If its not for me, it cant be right for anyone
I blame the cynics and the sun
So goodnight.

UNFIT
Im just not fit to go on and neither is anyone
Ive always needed a crowd just like an orphan

I dont deserve this at all
Strike that
I deserve all I get
I could be walking on water and complain that my feet get wet

But Id be fine if youd let go

I've always known the places of those who run for cover
The camera angle i've taken is wrong

I'll let it be, I'll let it go...if you say so

You make me feel like Im a salesman and somehow Im caught with red hands
Tightrope over reason like a skeptic with plans
You look at me for your desire, but Im using all I have
If you get off on your placement then get off my back.

Just say the words
Then fall into these arms
Just say the words
I know this feeling cant be/isnt right.